mY LiFE Story

2004-05-14T14:46:00.000+08:00

Wat a Week
Wat can i say..eversince i started working last week i barely have time for personal pleasures and wats even worst i dun get to watch my fav tv shows.Missed AI3 last nite!!!! Argh and wat i heard Latoya has been voted out!Man wat are the Americans doing?? She is the best of all the contestants there! Its so unfair man..Sometimes i just hate tis idea of having the nation as half of the judge. Cos mostly ppl jus go for the looks first then comes talents..Its really stupid man i tell u.

Anyway yesterday had a gmae of badminton with my fren at Sp. Been a while since i last played badminton. Guess i still have it in me hehe. Jus tat yesterday was a bit lethargic but the idea of having a game of badminton was overwhelming. So played for a while before going to work at 5pm.

It was very relaxing yesterday sort off i guess. Managed to clean everything by 10! How cool is tat. But still gotta work till 11Pm jus incase there r last orders..Oh well gonna work at 7 all the way till closing again tonite.

2004-05-06T16:35:00.000+08:00

Back Home

Wow..Benn away from home for 5 days man..Phew wat a week it has been! WEnt over to my aunts place at Bukit Batok. Helped out painting the entire house! And boy was it a tough job!! First i had to choose the colours for her. Since they wanted light colours i chose for them Tender Blue which is something like purplish pink..Tat was for the bahtrooms and bedrooms followed by some minty green colour for the living room and kitchen..Not to mention Had to choose another color for the door frame..Man..By the end of the painting job i was aching all over!! Not to mention had to paint the cornices...Now i still have to put up wallpapers and borders in the bedroom.. Guess i do tat when i'm free.

Anyway started work yesterday. Must say the crew there are nice ppl..Mostly are aunties ...Boring huh..Oh well it could be worst..Afterall i am going to go there to make money..Like duh...haha..Too bad my weekend is burnt tis week..Gonna work all the way...Jus hope i can hang on to tis job till i get my diploma certificate. When i get my certificate i am going to look for a real job..Look for tat engineering job..Save enuff money and go get a motorbike license after tat take a private cos on designing and architectural. Tats its for today man..Till the next time.

2004-04-27T12:19:00.000+08:00

Tennis

Had a nice game of tennis yesterday with a fren..Its been so long since i last played tennis and boy was it fun. Though i've forgotten a little how to serve correctly but soon i get the hang of it. Trust me tennis is a different ball game if compared to badminton. My serving techniques gone haywire man..am loosing the grip. The way i hit the ball back is also wrong sometimes..Oh well wat do u expect its been a while since i last played tennis. Nevertheless i had so much fun!After tat we had dinner at Long John Silver at Lot1. Man i dunno y but my taste bud prefer to eat there nowadays. Maybe its bcos over there they serve no burgers! Something tat i dun wanna eat at the moment! Getting sick of it already! Since the night was still young we headed to the arcade and watched my fren play the Virtual tennis game and man is he good! Then there was a challenger and wat a match! Both players are good but unfortunately the challenger managed to beat my fren in the game! Watching them play was so exciting. Anyway after tat we made our last stop at the library before heading home. Read some nice mags on house improvements..Must say interior designing interests me..Hope i can be a interior designer one day...

2004-04-24T11:38:00.000+08:00

Sore Lips

It has jus been 2 days after tat fateful day..My body is aching a little and the cuts in my mouth are healing..Now i look like some negros cos due to the cuts my lips are a bit swollen..Oh well i guess it still looks ok. hehe Wat really bothers me are Singaporean nowadays...They actually see me got beaten up like it was some kind of show and they are the audience! The bus was packed and to my surprise non actually came up to help! Non! 5 malay delinquents actually found fault with me and my fren. Ok tis is wat happened. We were in the bus no 16 and were heading to town as we wanted to apply for some part time jobs advertised in the paper. So there we were minding our own business laughing ard. We were seated at the 2nd last row and the bus was a single decker bus.

Then suddenly one of the malay guy seated 2 seats away from us said "Klakar kapa" something like tat. Well i jus ignored and dun even bother to look at him. Then u know wat suddenly he came up to me and slap my mouth!! Wat the fuck! My mum did'nt even dare to do tat to me and yet he did it to me. I dunno wat got into me i jus accepted tat blow when i know i should fight back.Part of me wanted to but the other part dun wan to break a fight. So fine i stayed calm but my fren had to open up his mouth and explain..I know he was trying to stood up for me but tat ended up he beaten up. So as u can guessed we fought exchanging punches and kicks.

Ppl were jus too scared to help! I dun really care abt tat but wat disturbs me wat kind of society are we living in??? Ppl are too scared to help..All they did was watch...I am pissed off cos i did'nt get to beat the guy who slapped my mouth more!!Wish could make him bleed more or cos some serious damage. i punched him a couple of times! But i am sorry for my fren..Bcos of me he got hurt and they took away his handphone..I will never forget tis day..I'm gonna get him a hp one day to make up for wat he went thru..Yesterday went to sch to settle some stuff at the Finance office. They issued me a cheque but missed some of the impt details..Finally got tat corrected and i went to cash out the cheque at the UOB branch near to my sch which is ard Beauty World near Bukit Timah. It rained while i was walking my way there. Got my money and wanted to go go home but it was raining buckets! Waited for a while hoping tat the rain would lighten up to a drizzle but it did'nt.

So i jus walked into the rain...Must say i enjoyed tat..I felt like i am cleaning myself of all the bad lucks and sorrows..Felt so serene..By the time i got to the bustop i was drenched to the skin..But it was worth it..It made me feel so much better...

2004-04-22T02:13:00.000+08:00

Unexpected Approach

TOday accompanied my best fren to get some stuff. He wanted to get a slimming cream called sillhouette something for his sister as a part away gift as he will be going to Ns tis Friday..Man i am going to miss him...Anyway we went to Bugis first cos i tot the Tv media shop is still there but it were'nt so we spent some time walking ard bugis since it's early. It was only 2:30. After window shopping we walked our way to suntec as he wanted to take a look at some sony radio..From there we went to Rafflescity hoping to find Tv media shop but still could'nt find it. Then it strucked us maybe the shop has went bankrupt thus close all its branches here..So our next option was to hit the pharmacies...

Since at rafflescity there's no Guardian pharmacy or Watsons we headed off to PS..Man i must say today we walked quite a distance..So off we went to PS and found the cream at both pharmacies but he said he wanted to look at other places first jus incase there might be better bargains and decided to go to taka..Anyway on the way out of PS a guy approached me..It turned out he is working under MTV and they r interviewing ppl wanting to know wats the most annoying song to us..And guess wat!! I am going to be in MTV! hehe!! But not sure though when they'll be broadcasting it on air..I am jus happy..Cos honestly saying tis few months has been a rough ride for me. TIs interview really made my day....After tat me and my fren went to taka and bought his stuff. Actually we went to almost all the malls in town cos he said he wont be able to come to town for quite sometime once he goes to Tekong..WE had dinner at Long John silver at far east there before heading home..

2004-04-20T18:29:00.000+08:00

In my room

I'm lying on my sofa bed and as i listen to my malay songs collection in my notebook the wind blew strongly. I looked out of the window and saw tat the clouds were getting darker by the minute. Looks like its gonna rain..Jus liked i wished for...Rainy weather makes me feel calm and i must say these few days been an emotional roller coaster ride for me..I need this break..

Man...dunno y things must get so complicated for me...I jus wan a simple life....Is tat too much to ask for?? I wan tat tender loving care tat i yearn so much..I know being in a broken family i got to be strong but alas i am only human. Sometimes when i meant well it always turn out the other way round and tat jus sucks...Sometimes i dun wanna lie but i had to due to some reasons...But deep down i feel awkward cos i dun really mean to lie...And when tat someones get angry and depressed over tat it jus make me feel even worst....How come my life feels like its tumbling down slowly...
I am breaking down..Finally i am breaking down...Tis heart of mine is eventually hurt..Never would i expect tears would run down my eyes again, i am allowing myself to succumb into tis sadness...Dunno if i'll ever get to get myself out of tis undesirable state....God if u r listening to me please show me the way to bring mysellf back to the right path. Show me the way to get myself out of tis mess tat i am in Amin.

2004-04-20T11:40:00.000+08:00

Why do i even bother

Why is it always honesty brings me so much pain?? Maybe next time i should jus keep everything to myself...Cos i dun wan to jeopardise any relationships...Tats the last thing i wanna do..Why do i always bother abt tat other person's feelings so much when my own feelings and actions are not appreciated..

Why does my heart keeps being crushed over and over and ove again..Its so mean..I am so confused...Each time i wanna heal i jus pull myself back down again..Hard as it is to keep up i find myself getting weaker and weaker everyday. Though i always put on a brave front..Put on tat smile and cheerfulness but only God knows wats going on deeper within me..

Man..i dunno wat i need..I am jus so low right now tat i cant think straight..I'm exhausted emotionally and mentally..

2004-04-19T19:24:00.000+08:00

Wats happening to me...

Its been a few months since i last updated my blog..So many things had happened within tat period of time..Sometimes I wish i could jus get into a coma and stay adamant for life...At least being asleep i can make my own world..I can dream abt all the good things and feel happy...Y is it so hard for me to find tat love tat i sought for? Why do i even bother to open my heart and let myself to love again when eventually i am going to b hurt again...I dunno wat to believe anymore...Am i only good enuff to be a fren..

I dunno how long i can hold on before i jus shut my door to everyone and jus be invinsible to everyone...I hate to be in tis state but i can't help it..The pain sometimes is too overwhelming...Is it impossible for anyone to take me seriously..someone whom will be there for me...Is there such person??

2004-02-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

JUz Realize......

Continuation to tat title of mine is..."i'm alone" A few minutes chat with a net fren of mine made me realise tat..Made me realise i dun actually have a true fren...It jus struck me...How sad is tat..Jus made my eyes watery and my heart crushed...Did'nt know my life is messed up like this..True i have net frens but they r jus there when they r online..Its like when they comes they comes...I actually dun have tat fren whom i can really hang out with most of the time jus like (Shah and Ean) and (Ryk and Naz)..

True frens r tat special frens who knows u in and out whom will always be there to back u up when u needed tat extra helping hand..Someone whom u can b with everyday and not actually feel bored cos u two jus have so much things to say to each other..I dun even have tat...Wat am i doin here in tis life man...Its jus so heartbreaking...I dun have anyone who i can really confide in..someone to hang out..Its like i always hang out with other ppl's frens...I mean i can't even find my own??

Like last Sat when i joined Shah and his best fren Ean..They are so close..They r like talking non-stop and making fun of each other and joke ard..Basically having the fun of their life like they never met each other for years..I was like invisible..An audience perhaps..I guess i can only be tat huh..A spectator..an observer...No man is alone well guess again...I'm an exception...No i'm not over-reacting here cos its a fact..I dun have anyone whom will truly understands me..whom will watch my back..whom i can jus hang out with and have so many things to talk abt..No one...

2004-02-05T02:00:00.000+08:00

The trouble with LOVE

U know....Its easy for someone to fall in love..It'd only take a split second and u r head over heels over tat person..Its like i watch this show on tv jus now..Tis guy finally found his match. Its like she is all tat he ever dreamed off. He likes music and so does she, jus tat she is more talented as in she is a singer but he only knows how to play the piano..Opportunity knocks once and so he get to know tis lady and yeah they chat and like each other..Seems like they known each other for years..But in the end he had to give up on her..It was'nt easy for him but he had to cos she was a drug addict..She was on some drugs..SAD huh..if only she was'nt on drugs then they would have hit it off..

Love sure works strangely..It does'nt care who u fall with..Love can be the angel or the devil..Something we human can't leave without..Its so complex where the matters of the heart is concern..No matter how bitter it is..WE all need to be LOVE..Cos i myself am a victim of LOVE. I jus hope i have the courage to maintain it..I dun wanna live my life alone..NObody does but if tat happens i jus have to accept it bravely...ITs not like i did'nt try to love someone..Believe me i am trying and its not easy for tis child who originally was from a broken home to open up his heart to some stranger..I saw how my mum and dad broke up and it aint a pleasant experience..Eversince then i never really give myself the chance to be loved..Cos i'm afraid i'll end up jus like my parents..Right now..all i can say is i am taking the risk..I'm giving my 100%. Never have i been so sincere and devoted to someone..I'm gonna hang on till my last breath..

2004-01-30T17:52:00.000+08:00

Power Of Rain
U might probably seen my blomaties talking abt how cold it is all of sudden in Singapore and i must say ya man..its been freezing lately and being the weird person tat i've always been i kinda love every moment of it! Muahaha! The gloomy , foggy weather jus make me happy..Wat can i am a water sign! I used to think tat when it rained the world become more lively...As in water brings life to the world.Maybe we wont get to really sees tat being the city slickers tat we r but if u r in the jungle u'll be amazed!!

Rain brings life to the plants and all those living things within tat compound..Streams transformed into a river and its filled with schools of fishes..The quiet jungle is filled with joyful cries from thousands of species all joining into one and producing an orchestra of their own! TRees and plants become so refreshed and they started to produce more oxygen thus filling the air with tat cool and refreshing sensation..With tat said i introduce to u a song related to rain..Observe the lyrics..Its kinda cool.

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no lie
I defy

[CHORUS:]
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm comimg clean, I'm coming clean

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin

'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind

[CHORUS]

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming clean

[CHORUS]

Let's go back
Back to the beginning

2004-01-27T17:07:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling it

Another rainy day..As i sat in the living room and observing my mum i notice something..She's lonely..She's definitely feeling alone..Man..nothing hurts me more than to c her like tat..Sometimes she would jus seat on the lazy chair and lost herself staring in space..I wonder wat she's thinking about..She used to be working but not anymore now..So she has all the time in the world to do watever she wants..Man..how i wish i could make her happy..Cos i know feeling alone is the biggest problem anyone could ever face with..All she has now is her 2 sons..

She has been raising us up eversince my dad eloped with another woman like a decade ago..Being a single parent is surely not easy..Man..life can really be cruel sometimes..I jus got a call from the Contract Aviation company asking me to come down to their office this Thursday..I was jus wondering once i start working my mum is going to be all alone now at home..I won't be there for her all the time like i used too..Jus thinking abt it makes my eyes watery and to top it up i have not even started working and i am already worrying abt her...

2004-01-26T21:29:00.000+08:00

I hate...

Man...I jus hate the way i look.....Whenever i c myself in albums i would like think who is tat hideous creature in that pic?? Sad but true.. Tats how i think of myself...I dunno y man..Y do i always feel so bad abt myself..Due to tat i would loose my appetite and would not even eat for days..Or at least eat very little..Now..how am i suppose to love ppl ard me when i dun love myself? Tats the question tat i've been asking myself for a long time..And i still dunno how to answer to tat question.

I hate the way i look tat i always bury my face by wearing hats..Those who knows me well will notice tat..Or if sometimes when i get bored with hats i would jus wear a pair of shades..Probably tis explains why i seldom get my pic taken cos i can't bare to c how i turn out in the pic..Sigh..there goes my confidence...Wonder when will i stop feeling sorry for myself...With tat i wrote a poem to justify myself:

I hate my face

I hate my face
Feels like its a disgrace..
A disgrace to human race

When i look into the albums
i jus can't help but feel sorry..
Sorry to those who sees me
Cos i feel i am ugly 1st degree

I wish how i could jus vanish
Simlpy disappear into thin air
And not be seen anywhere..

I hate my face
Everywhere i go i'll feel out of place
I dun have anymore faith
I hate my face.

2004-01-24T14:31:00.000+08:00

Update

Ok sorry for not updating any sooner cos i was really occupied these few days.Ok lets get on to business.
Wednesday went out for a 1 night chalet at Pasir Ris there and i must say there were so many ppl!! There were many chinese family too!! I'm a bit surprised cos don't they have a celebration to attend to? Tats wat kept me puzzled man..Some chinese ppl just treat their new year celebration as if its nothing..Haiz..wats happening to them man.. Its sad tat ppl are losing their traditional traits..Anyway back to the topic..the chalet was actually for the youngsters. Mainly it was to discuss on the distribution of workloads for my cousin's wedding which commence on June 27th! Man i'm gonna miss her..We all had great fun discussing who do wat..I on the other hand had a rough start at first cos i had a temporary flubug. So took me a few hours to come back to my usual self. Of course with the help of the cold remedy and i must say i HATE taking medicine! The remedy was so sour! I basically force myself to swallow tat unheavenly concoction! But i guess it was worth it cos i was back to normal self in a couple of hours!

Anyway tat night was kinda special cos its gonna be the last chalet we r gonna have with my cousin who is not going to be single anymore..She is like a sister tat i never had...Oh well i better not get emotional. When u gotta go..u gotta go. Checked out at noon and went to my auntie house cos she wanted to pass some stuff to my cousin(the one going to get married) somehwere at sengkang there..And being the sotong person tat i've always been i unintentionally left my brother digital camera over there..Bummer..Anyway thankfully for me my cousin's sister went back to get it for me..I'm SAFE! hehe So spent Thursday afternoon at her place karaoke together with my other cousins! Well it was supposingly to be fun but somehow i was in no mood for singing so i guess the afternoon was jus normal to me..I enjoyed being ard my cousins though..On Friday my other cousin the one tat lives in jurong east central ask me out for cycling at East Coast there. Well of cos i agreed eventhough the weather was'nt tat promising! Her father sent us there and to our dismay it rained cats and dogs! So we ended eating at Komalas! Man.. i've never tasted the food there so i was kinda 50 - 50 abt the idea..I guess it was'nt so bad..The food was ok but a bit spicy..

God must have been on our side cos soon the rain stopped!! Not wanting to waste time we went to rent our bikes...The renting rates were rather attractive man..cos we get to rent the bikes for 2 hrs for only 6 bucks! cheap huh! We cycled for 2 hours non-stop! We even went as far as Bedok jetty there..It was a great evening i guess..I've always liked the beach..So i was at my calmest and peaceful mode yesterday! Was feeling very happy and contented! Went home over to her place and by the time we reached her place it was almost 9pm. I wanted to go home but her ftaher insisted tat i stay over for the night. Well tats wat i did..Tats it..Tats wat happened in my life these few days! (",)

2004-01-20T10:52:00.000+08:00

Stop Being goodie2shoes

Damn..Its happening again..Y must i try to be the prefect person?? To make people happy? I must get it clear man wat i am doing will make other ppl despise me or something someday..I mean we can't please everybody u know..The most important thing is jus be yourself man..Dun have to worry so much abt other ppl whether they will like u or not..Cos u r wat u r. If ppl can't even appreciate u being yourself then they r just not worth it.I should stop apologizing for tis and for tat..If the person says nothing abt it then just leave it u know.Dun worry so much..

I am trying to jus be myself from now on...NO more worrying abt wat other ppl think of me..I'll only worry when they are not happy with me cos tat shows i am doing something wrong..SO tats it..Its time to change for the better..

2004-01-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

Rainy Days

As i sit beside my bedroom window
I observe how the world gets wet..
Yes it rained the whole day jus so u know
The sound of rain drops even overpowered my blaring tv set.

Its like the world is taking a cold bath.
Even the frogs are enjoying every moment of it.
They are singing with their every single breath.
I must say i am enjoying this ochestra bit by bit.

Out on the streets i see people running for cover.
Some even took the liberty of using a newspaper as shelter.
Cars on the road speed and inevitably splashes water to a passerby.
This is often accompanied by loud shrewd cry.

Still i think i love rainy days.
I feel cool and settled
WAt else can i say..
I jus like rainy days.

2004-01-18T17:43:00.000+08:00

Something u dunno abt me..

Sometimes how i wish i could add in adrenalin into my life..I sure could use some of it..U know wat..it has always been my ambition to work in some funky and cool places or maybe something tat requires adventure..Eversince i was young..i wanted to work as a zoologist or an archeologist..Or maybe a vet.. Its really amazing man if i can land in these kind of jobs.. Would love to travel ard the world and learn abt how animals live and all.. Whenever i watch an animal documentary i would like stay glued to the tv and remote hahah! So tat no one can change the channel.. My definition of contirbution to the world would be to save endangered animals and fight for their right!

Man...i dunno wat my character is like..Its like whenever i sees a helpless animal lets say a cat..my heart would get so depressed.. Its like i wanna help but i know i dun have the power to do so.. Cos even if i wanna bring it home i still have to answer to my mum..Something tat i know in the end i would end up giving the cat away...Now i just hope tat i can be someone who is useful to everyone as well as to the community one day...

Tat aside..Someone told me tat the right person will come to u one day..So now my question is how would u know if tat someone is the one?? The right one to be precised..Wat makes u so sure of tat..Haiz.. do we jus leave it to fate? To me i think we r the one who sculpture our fate..Wat we do now shapes wat we r tomorrow...

It has always been my desire to live together with the one i love..Have our own apartment. Maybe get an apartment on the top floor! I just love heights man! It makes me feel like i am at the top of the world!Have a family of our own or something. We would then travel together and all..I've always wanted to observe the face of my lover when my lover is asleep..Cos to me a person looks the best when they r sleeping.They will look so peaceful and sweet and innocent. I would wan to cuddle up on bed with my lover all night..It jus gives me a good feeling.. A feeling tat i actually have someone! Man..i have never felt so ready in my entire life..I am so ready to b in a relationship now.I can't explain tat feeling but i know i am sure i am ready. I know wat i want.

2004-01-18T16:42:00.000+08:00

2 Simple a Person 2 Understand complications in Life

Yup tats wat exactly i am feeling now...I dunno if tats a good or a bad thing though! Its like i see things so simply..For example i expect ex - lovers to be ok with each other and all whenever they r invited to go out together in a gathering..Wheras tat is just impossible...Its not as easy as it seems..Cos personally wat i think is..the problems u r having with an individual u should not make outsiders be part of them..U get wat i mean? U should never make others affected with the problems u have...Or is it i am jus a lonely person?..A lonely person always keep things to themselves...

Tat explains y i always try my might to be cheerful and try to see things from a different point of view.the good side of view tat is...Thus sometimes tat makes me naive and guilible i guess..Man...do i need to get a life!

2004-01-16T18:41:00.000+08:00

In a SPOT

Woke up pretty early 2day man..Was up ard 7am..Its been a while since i got up tat early man.. The last time i wake up ard tat time was when i had 8am lectures in poly..Guess something wrong with my biological clock 2day! Muahaha! I am supposed to go for my second interview at Pizza hut there..Well the thing is tat put me in a spot is an hour before i get ready for the interview i recieved call from Singapore Airline where i applied the Contract Aviation agent last Dec asking me if i could come somewhere next week for a medical check up and to bring down all the neccessary documents..They will give me a call again next week to state the time and place..For all of u who are not sure wat an Aviation agent does, these r ppl who inspect the luggages and all thru the small monitor at Changi airport..

Anyway i did go for the pizza hut interview as well..I must say i did the right thing by refusing the offer. The manager wanted me to sign a 3 months contract in which i am only to work for 3 days tat is from fri to sunday..Man.. i just hope i did the right decision to go with this aviation company cos i have to sign a 2 yr contract by then i would have already obtained my diploma..Oh well lets just wait and c wat happens next week! Alrighty tats it for today..Laters

2004-01-15T21:51:00.000+08:00

Man I am a Solo Guitar!! I Like!!

A Loud Guitar Solo: You are the wild one! Loud
noises and chaotic scenes are in your
preference. You have a sense of adventure that
is truly yours alone. Whether your at a concert
or at home enjoying a thunderstorm, you are
bold and beautiful! Rock On! (please rate my
quiz)

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2004-01-15T21:47:00.000+08:00

Man This IsFucking True! Muahaha!

You, my friend are a true individual. You most
likely hate trends and are creative. By seeing
things differently, people either admire you or
think you are a bit strange. I'm guessing you
are a lot like me. Perhaps a Good Charlotte
hater? I hope so. An inspiration to us all,
continue being you! (If you like GC, I'm sorry,
I am just expressing an opinion)

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2004-01-15T21:33:00.000+08:00

Jus another day

TOday woke up pretty early..I dunno if u think 10 plus is early but to me i think it is! hahaha. Anyway went for another try at job hunting today with my fren..Met him at 2 and went to apply part time work at pizza hut! Actually i was hoping to find work in a cafe as a waiter or something but somehow today i got a feeling i might get the job if i try at pizza hut. So make my way to jelita there and applied and to my amaze everything went well.. After the interview we headed down to Holland Village and had something to eat at Burger King..

Must say today is pretty relax..Not much of walking or travelling..So spent like an hour plus there before i recieved a call from the manager asking me to come for the interview tomorrow!! Man i just hope i can get the job..Right now i jus wanna work and stay out of home!! Cos staying at home doing nothing will drive me nuts one day!! No matter wat i do i will go back to square one tat is feeling bored..Wat i need now is some challenge..Something tat brings out the best of me..

Anyway had a great time looking for job with rik..First stop we went to play the waiter job at The Gallery Hotel and i must say the place is COOL!! fierce man! I love the structure of the building and the interior is so creative! REally looks like an art gallery! Have always been a fan of art..The thing is they r only looking for experienced waiters..One more thing though..Both of were stalked by this man!! We were actually finding our way to the hotel but dunno somehow suddenly this man kept following us!! When we stop he stop it was getting kinda freaky to me! Eventually we manage to shake him off! haha Man am i relieved!! Anyway we went to other apply at Elly bar near Robinson shopping centre must say the place is classy..But i dun think i will get the job...

2004-01-14T13:06:00.000+08:00

I will Get There

It just struck to me tat i am just too good..too decent..too guilible most of the time..And as we all know too much of something is never a plus thing..I need to just stop and ask myself wat have i done for myself?? Its like most of the time i care too much for others..Too much of their welfare that i am neglecting my own..Is this how i wan to live for the rest of my life? Guess its time for a change now man..Its now or never..And i'm not saying the change in me will be immediate it goes with time but i am definitely changing..Tats for sure..Changing for the better.

Like tat someone said to me..I need a balance..Should love myself more before i love the others ard me. Appreciate my own self before i move ard appreciating others. I should not worry too much and make my life more complex than it already is.. So here goes.. i am going to be a little bit more self centered for now..Making myself the top priority instead..So thus the title.."I Will Get There" Well tats it for now. Need to go for another job hunting..LAters alligators!

2004-01-13T11:50:00.000+08:00

Out with the Negative In with the Positive
Ok yesterday i just had to lash out all the negative vibes..I mean everyone have tat moments where they sit down and pour out wat they really feels and whens tat is over they move on and tats practically i'm doin. NOw tat the negative vibes is out of my system its time to look on the brighter sides Just like this song playing on my blog..Wash away my tears, wash my sorrows..Well i'm gonna look for job again today so wish me luck!! COs i need lots of tat man! Oh well tats it for today.. Ps: Enjoy the Song!

2004-01-12T19:00:00.000+08:00

Powerless

Right now i just feel all mixed up..Its like all the feelings are jumbled up into one and shoved up into this tiny heart of mine..I just feel so helpless..Which in turn leads to relationships..One thing i can say abt myself is i am an utterly failure when it comes to getting a commitment..Its not tat i never try..I always give my all man my very all..all the sincerity, passion and concern tat i have i show them all. But in the end i only ended up being hurt..being used..Dun b decieved by how i look cos i am the type tat will always look happy and cheerful eventhough deep down i am hurting. I dun wan other people to worry abt me..I guess i am always alone thus whenever i fall i am the one tat help myself back to my feet. Sometimes when i think back abt it when will i ever have tat someone who will reach out to me and offer their help..I am like trap in a tall tower waiting to b rescued by tat someone special....

Man..y must it always b like this..Y do i end up in a situation where i find myself defenseless and powerless not to mention deserted...Its like when i like someone i would give all my commitment to tat person even if it means leading to my own downfall.I would try all my might to make tat someone happy.I only want to shower my love and concern basically make tat someone feel tat they r wanted and will always be loved..But in the end i am the one tat falls..I've been hurt so many times but yet i still open up my heart hoping one day just one day tat someone would really love me and appreciates me for who i am.. Is tat too much to ask for?? Y must i b punished like this..God knows how lonely i am..I just can't keep it to myself anymore cos if i dun write down these feelings i am feeling now i might just breakdown and my heart will b closed forever. Then i would be jus a bitter person.. a person tat is empty on the inside...Now eventhough i have a liking for someone i can't do anything much abt it..I can only show wat my feelings are from my actions..Its like how often u get the chance to come across tat someone who is perfect for u. I dun wan to say out my feelings cos i am so afraid tat i get hurt again..And i just can't bear to be in tat situation again..Just can't..Now..i am all alone by myself...I want to cry so much but i dunno y i just can't shed a tear anymore..The moment my father left me and my family tats when i vowed not to cry again.......I only want to be loved.I want to get up everyday knowing tat i am in love..I wan to be able to say "i love u", "I miss you"...Y is tat even so hard for me to grasp. I dunno whether is there anyone out there who will take me seriously.Am i only fit to be a fren to ppl and not anything more than tat??.I am out of my wits.All i wan is just a chance.A chance to prove tat i could be a good lover.Will i be alone again for Valentine's Day this year?...I jus hope this year would be different.Really do..

I wanted to jus go out today and go to the beach or something..So tat i could gain back my confidence and sanity..but i guess its too far away..How i wish i could just close my eyes and drift into another world where happiness is always around..At least i dun have to feel wat i am feeling now.....

2004-01-12T14:21:00.000+08:00

Book Hunt

Its been 2 days since i last blogged. So here goes..Last sat went down to suntec city convention there as there was a book sale going on..I must say its been a while since i go to such functions. The last time i went to a book sale or fare was when i was in sec sch!! hahah Tats a pretty long time..So i reached there ard 11:30 plus or so..and before i found the place i was a bit lost cos i can't remember how to get to the convention. So spent a couple of minutes searching for the place.Anyway there were like so many people there man! It was sure damn crowded..

So i began my search cos a fren of mine asked me to look for him some reference books related to music cos he can't come early as he gotta work.Since i got nothing to do so there i was searching for music related books. To my dismay most of the books tat were being sold were mostly computer books and wats worst is tat all the books were jumbled up and there were like 3 rows and 3 columns of books for adult english non fiction book..So i began my search on the lower row..Eventually got a book on jazz..bingo! At least i managed to grab a book related to music and its abt jazz. Something tat my fren wanted. Anywat to cut the story short i spent almost 4 hr plus there..Wats more surprising i never expected my fren to come down cos first of all he got this fever and flu so i was like hoping he rest at home. And so he did. Came down with his younger sister. Though i wanted to stay longer but i was rellay tired by then and so i left them feeling bad.

On my way home i saw my closest cousin. Its like we r the closest of all the cousins cos we grew up practically together.WE were like chatting and laughing like nobody business..It was great cos its been a while since we had a goodtime like tat. Soon she will b getting married and man..i am gonna miss her..Once she is married i dun think we'll b as close as we used to....Well lets not get all emotional here..Sunday practically stayed home. Today i am suppose to look for jobs but my fren is a bit bz and so i guess i am gonna stuck at home again.. Wonder if i can meet my fren for dinner today..Sent him a message but still got no reply.. Perhaps he is really bz..Oh well guess there is always some other time..So tats it for today..

2004-01-09T12:10:00.000+08:00

Recollecting myself

Man..wat can i say abt myself..I guess one day i will cause my own downfall..U know its easy to like someone. Will only take a few moments with them and tats all it needs..The worst thing tat can happened is.. dun ever assume..and dun ever ever have any hopes or expectations cos in the end u might end up hurting yourself..Man..i am just plain naive and guillible huh..Now i dun really know how to understand wat people is feeling..So scared to derived anything cos scared i might b wrong again..

Man..i dunno wats happening to me..I guess wats best is to accept things as it comes..No need to think abt anything else..Just treasure every single moment tat passes..After all we live only once right so make the best of every single day,person and watever tat comes..Tats settles it..Ride with the waves man.. hehe follow the flow baby. Anyway i guess listening to this song makes me feel better..Cos i am feeling exactly wat it is singing.

2004-01-08T20:17:00.000+08:00

Getting deeper with innerself

Yesterday stayed home basically the whole day..Was hoping tat i get a call from the places i've applied but i guess i am just not good enough for them huh. Oh well must never give up! No matter how depressing and tough things get i just have to strive on man..Though sometimes i just can't help but to feel down..i mean hey i'm a human being afterall! he he. So much abt finding a job..Anyway as usual had a gr8 conversation with my date and i must say last nite conversation was out of the extraordinary. Y i say tat?? Well for one thing we were talking abt those paranormal things and esp. Paranormal activities have always captures my attention 2ndly we read up each other horoscope not tat we really believe in it but it was kinda for fun. Wats shocking abt horoscopes are they are always true..I'm a scorpio, supposingly the most unstable signs of all. Seems like i am the rebellious kind with lots of bad points but then again my good points makes up for my bad points so its balanced i guess! hehe Wheras my date is an Aquarian a very intelligent and artisitic intellect. Man..y must my date get all the best points! heheh not fair!

Lastly i notice tat my behaviour towards my date is umm lets just say i got a bit carried away to the extend tat without knowingly i am giving myself a bad impression..I guess i let my heart do the work more rather than my brain which i think its time for a change man..Need to focus on who i actually am and set asides all the expectations and hopes and just be myself. Yes u can say i did some soul searching..Last time i used to say i am going to be very direct which i think is a good thing but then again sometimes we just have to surpress the emotions and release it when the time is right. Cant be reckless now cos if i do tat i am just destroying myself. Well here goes man..As of today i am not going to be reckless anymore but cheerful, optimistic and easygoin person and accept things as it comes and most of all be a rational and sensible person. Must think before i talk. Cos i rather put other's interest before mine..Making them happy will make me happy.

Well so much for self reflection..Today met up with my best fren. Shahidah. Its been a while since we get together...Known her for 2 years plus now and must say she is the best-est fren i've ever had.We used to b so close together tat my frens think we r a couple and whenever we go out together ppl just looked at us..hahahah dunno y also. Surprisingly she did'nt recognise me man when i approached her!! Ha ha ha. Have i really changed a lot? Its like not only her but my frens think i look so diff now..Hmm maybe the haircut i guess and perhaps i lost weight..So all tat abt u look different when u loose weight is true man! he he he Anyway to be honest i feel different now..I just can't explain wat but i just feel i've changed..for the better tat is.Anyway we like met up at Far East Bk and had our meals together and fill in on each other of wat had happened to our life and all.. I had a great time wit her man..To think she is the belle of the class and she is my best fren! Now how many guys get tat opportunity! hehe. So we just sat and chat and chat. After tat went shopping with her ard Far East there..Man..I miss the old days when were schooling..Always look out and wait up on each other..Now its like we all have embarked on separate journey in life.

I know its kinda late to talk abt my resolution but i am gonna say it anyway. Been giving it a tot and this year i wanna get myself a job and b succesful in my career, I wanna settle down in a relationship. I mean a serious one and not those kiddy bgr thingy. I am so sincere in building myself a relationship. I wanna shower my love and concern and make sure my lover feels loved and not alone..Nobody deserve to be alone..I believe each and everyone of us have a soulmate..I just had it with being alone..Its time for a change..I am ready to accept any challenges tat comes and try my best to overcome it. Anyway i guess tats it for today..Peace

2004-01-06T21:49:00.000+08:00

Feeling a Bit Low

Went to look for jobs again today.. First stop was at Starbucks Coffee the one situated outside Wheelock Place but could'nt really asked for a form cos everyone was busy so off to Heeren cos there is a shop tat is looking for sales assistant. Went there and filled the form and was told to come back again ard 3:30 cos the boss is not ard.My fren then wanted to go to CIA at lavender there so i accompanied him. After tat read the classified and found out a cafe at Plaza Singapura is looking for waiters. Went there and the interview went well but as usual i have to wait for their call.. By the time the interview was over it was ard 3:30 so off we go to the shop which is at Heeren. And u know wat.. the depressing part is when i got there the manager said he will call me if there is a short listed. I mean it was so infuraiting man! Y can't his employer says tat in the first place??

By then my mood was really really down.Cos i really would love to work in tat kind of line especially dealing with fashion and clothes..Was feeling so dejected by then..My fren then said he wanted to take a look at the Wallet shop so off we go and on the way i saw another shop looking for Sales Assistant. Being the stubborn head tat i am cos i really want to work in fashion shops so i went in and try my luck but alas they said come back tomorrow cos its almost 5...Tat just blew it..my spirit o meter is way low..So we got to the wallet shop and again find out tat they r looking for sales assistant.. I filled in the form and they said they will call within 3 days..Haiz which i know the chances of me getting the job is pretty slim..Tat is just so sad..

I was feeling depressed and just dun want to back home early..So i bought something at 77th street there just to cheer myself up..Then after tat just went window shopping with my fren. Got into HMV and made a stopover by the Jazz section..Was feeling a bit better though then off we went to Paragon and FarEast Plaza..Was walking aimlessly..Soon my legs were getting tired cos been walking since 1 and therefore decided to go home.. Took a bus behind Somerset mrt there and got home ard 7 plus..I just feel so damn frustrated and down..How i wish i could jus head down to the beach..But alas its too far and no one can accompany me..Bummer..

2004-01-05T18:53:00.000+08:00

B-type: The Charitable type
>
> >> > You were the devoted lover in your former existence that d
>edicated your
>
> >> > whole being to the object of affection. When you fell in love,
>you forgot
>
> >> > about everything else including your own self.
>
> >> > You experienced a lot of pain because many people took advantage
>of your
>
> >> > kindness. All your lovers were beautiful people but they possessed
> >> > narcissistic qualities, which was the result of your breakups. Their
> >> > selfishness never allowed them to return the love that
>you continuously
> >> > provided for them. But you never despised them for the wounds
>they left onyou.
>
> >> > What you should do in this life-time is to become more
>sensible, rational,
>
> >> > and calculative, so that you will not have to endure so much pain
>as you did
>
> >> > in the past. Don't just settle for anyone who crosses your path
>but wait
>
> >> > patiently for someone who will provide you with a reciprocal love.

Took a quiz from an e-mail sent by a fren and i must say its freaky cos wat they say is all true abt me..Fierce man!

2004-01-04T17:13:00.000+08:00

Slow weekend

Saturday starts off pretty slow for me. I woke up ard 11 am plus and did the usual routine; brushed my teeth, wash up and all. Then as usual i would switch on my comp. Guess my life is getting mundane man..Right now my computer is my bestest of friend. Cos unlike humans who come and go my computer will always be here for me..It'll be here when i'm sad or happy..At least it'll keep me from going boinkers. Am i a freak? well..i leave u to decide its not tat it matters to me anyway. I just dun understand myself..its like my heart feel so empty..so lifeless.something is missing but wat???

I am losing my appetite man...losing it to the extend it worries my mum cos i barely eat anything..I just lost my desire to do anything..Damn..wats happening to me??

Anyway later in da afternoon i met up with my frens and watched School Of Rock at Bugis. Once again another kick ass movie second to Lord Of The Ring.. I was blown away from my seat man. A cool movie..definitely a must see movie. I almost shed a tear man not cos i'm sad but was just amazed by the young talents in the movie. They r magnificient..I'd do anything to just to be able to play an instrument and be in a band or something..I've said it berfore and i'll say it again its cool to be in a band..Cos i can't live without music..Its my passion..If given a chance i would love to find a job tat is related to music....

2004-01-03T15:10:00.000+08:00

TGIF

Never knew sitting at boat quay was so relaxing..I was waiting for Rik then cos his band got an audition at Carudi Studio there. So i just came down to give him my support. Back to the topic..the atmosphere was so calming and this is made better by the strong evening breeze. As i sat there i observe the ppl ard me..Seems like love is in the air and its not even Valentine's Day yet. I guess u dun need to wait for Valentine's Day for love to spread ard..Love waits for no one and it surely does'nt need a reason to be ard.. Umm does tat make sense? hehe Anyway.. I would love to go there again man..It just make me feel highly spirited dun ask me y cos i can't explain the emotions i'm feeling when i'm there.Just felt at ease.
Everyone over there came as couples..How sweet huh to be able to spend something so serene with ur loved ones..Man..I want to be in tat situation..Damn..

Anyway Rik arrived ard 7:30 and i think we spent another half an hour looking for Carudi Studio cos we both have no idea where it is..Eventually Rik's fren came and led us the way..I must say the studio is a small cos i tot i could observe his band playing but alas it was so small tat i waited outside the studio. Bummer huh.But it was alright i guess cos i can still hear the bands playing thier pieces. One word to describe them.. AMAZING. Just fabulous man..I've always tot its cool to be able to play in a band..Its amazing how each and everyone cooperates and comes out with a solid sound. Took my breath away! At least i dun feel so bored. I think the whole thing was over by 9 plus.

So Rik hang ard with his frens before going to Backstage while i met up with my date cos i promised to treat my date dinner. So off we went to Lau Pasat. As usual the place is crowded and thankfully we managed to get a table in tat hustle. Lets c..we had 20 sticks of Satay n i ordered cockles fried rice and my date Pattaya fried rice..Honestly i think food at Al Ameen is far much better off but since both of us are famished cos both of us did not had anything for lunch, we just make do with them. And its our first dinner together! hehe must say i am still a bit shy.. I know i know its like we've been talking in da phone for like 2 weeks now and i am still a bit shy! Hahaha wat can i say i am just a shy person. hehe.Neverthless i've never felt so comfortable and right abt something. After tat off we went back to the boat quay sitting by the river and u know wat my wish came true! hehe I get to spend it with someone. Its great..we talked and i find out so many things abt my date. I am so pleased with his openess and if u r readin this blog,Thank u for the magical evening.. It may seems just like a normal date but to me every sec with u is magical..Ok.. Ok i better not start..hehe I wanna say so many things man..abt how i feel and all but i guess some things r just not meant to be shared. Well to cut the story short we took the same NR together and i think i reached home ard 2am. I wonder wat time my date reached home cos can c tat my date is tired. was basically in a deep sleep cos i can hear the heavy breathing..Once again man if u read this..Thank u ok. I appreciate wat u did.

2004-01-02T15:22:00.000+08:00

Ponder...ponder.....

Well wat can i say..Time passes by so fast..Its already 2004. Seems just like yesterday i had my orientation in sch..But alas Poly life is over for me..I've come to the end of the road and now its time to choose which path i wanna go to in life..
This is something all of us have to go thru i guess..This is the pit stop. Time to think for ourselves cos no one is going to help u now. Its up to u and u alone..Tat means a new set of resposibilities and burden..

Lets c..i've been looking for jobs since last month after Hari Raya but still no luck..Oh well it has been a very depressing moment of my life aniticipating a call from any of the companies i applied for..Nevertheless i am not gonna give up..I'll keep on trying till i find one..Just hope it won't take me such a long time to find one tat is! Cos its really tedious travelling from one place to another for the interviews..I have always been the stubborn in the family i guess..So i won't give up until i get wat i wanted..Of cos there r limits like duh..I know when to keep on pursuing and when to stop.

I am suppose to get a hair cut later but i just feel so lazy man..Perhaps tomorrow huh..Lets just hope i can go thru today as enjoyable as i can man! I know wat..I guess i'll bury myself listening to music! Never fails to cheer me up. Well MTV here i come! woohoo!

2004-01-01T19:00:00.000+08:00

Inner Child Reborn

First of all HAppy New Year!! Woohoo!! Goodbye 2003! Hello 2004!!Had a great time last nite! My uncle organise a bbq party for all us youngsters and i must say its the best party i've ever had! The BBQ started at 9pm...The venue was at West Coast Park and i must say its been ions since i went there!!! O how i miss tat place man. The last time i went there was during primary sch days!! Imagine how long it has been huh!

The beach was extremely crowded with families, frens, couples and so on..The atmosphere was filled with excitement! And one more thing the sky was crsytal clear and i get to see stars!! I just love looking at them! Sure make me feel at ease and happy! WAts more i am at the beach! My fav place of all! The mood was perfect. I could just stay and gaze at the stars foerver and ever..

Lets see when the clock strikes 12am everyone started to shout Happy New Yr!! Its amazing and our shouts were accompanied with the sirens frm the ships at the nearby port. And shots from flashguns were fired into the sky..A spectacular view man! Just wonderful...Anyway there were abt 20 of us youngsters with age ranges from 7 to 28..I've always loved kids and as usual my young nieces, nephews and cousins would come up to me.. Dun ask me y cos kids always like to b ard me and play with me! So i brought them to the playground there and we climbed the pyramid play the flying fox and all sorts of things found there! Man i just felt like a kid again Especially when i climbed to the top of the pyramid..I used to climb onto trees when i was small.. Made my own tree house even..Ah those glorious days..

Afer tat we went back to our pit and we played games like dog n bone, "anak ayam" and captain ball!! Its already 1 am and we r playing games like these!! Haha! Something diff from the normal New Year celebration where everyone would be dancing and drinking and all.. Last nite was a fun filled nite! Oh ya i played beach volleyball too just b4 we pack up and leave ard 4 in the morning..

U tot its over?? Guess again cos later in the morning there is a "kenduri" at my aunts place..So last nite i slept over at my uncle's place which is near my aunt's place at jurong east central.. Was suppose to come down early but i guess my eyes were just too heavy and ended coming there ard 2 instead of 11am!! Anyway i am beat man! Tats all for today!

2003-12-31T13:39:00.000+08:00

Farewell 2003

Well its here again...Another ending tat leads to a new beginning..So many things happened in 2003 and just like any years tat has passed i will always remmember the legacy tat it will leave me...With tat i dedicate a poem to thee..

Farewell 2003
Its that time of year again.
An ending which brings upon another new beginning.
2003 is leaving...Yes its finally leaving..

I'm not going to be sad, I'm not going to cry.
Cos 2003 has been such a joyful ride.
Thanks to you i'm a better man, I'm leaving you with pride.

Today is ur departure and it'll be celebrated by worldwide.
They'll be gathering all over for your last stride.
I am going to miss you...
With that i bid you my last goodbye.

No doubt the legacy u leave behind will always stay alive in my mind.

2003-12-30T17:19:00.000+08:00

FALLIING DEEPER...

Guess 2day is just gonna be just like the normal day..Actually i have many things going on my mind but i am afraid of embracing them..I am like aniticipating for something tat i've long yearn for but its like i dare not ask for it cos afraid of spoiling the mood and end up being hurt..No matter how much i am trying i just swallow it and try to be normal...Man..its really agonizing...

Anyway i was invited to a bbq at east coast during New Year's Eve but somehow was'nt really keen to go down cos its been the same every yr..God...i just wish i could celebrate this amazing event with "A" i really do..but..i dunno whether it'll b a reality...Am i like asking too much?? It would b so special if i could just spend it with A even if its for a few sec it would make my day..

Man..eversince i know A i feel like i am a diff person but i dunno abt A..Sheesh i think i better not say anymore man..dun wanna make it an issue.. I just remind myself..go with the flow..Just go with the flow Zaid...

Anyway guess wat?! I got an inspiration from someone to write poems! It will not be easy man! Especially when it comes to choosing the right words and make the verse link to each other..But when its completed everything just fall into place! Amazing..well i better start writing huh since i got so much free time..I better make full use of it.And bsides since i can't bring myself to say things out loud wat better way to express myself by writing it down..Hope i can come up with something nice! Wish me luck! (",)

2003-12-29T20:23:00.000+08:00

Too much free time

Yup! Too much of something is not good! Well tats wat someone said to me and i must agree man! Cos here i am making another entry in a day! I have too much free time tat i dun really know wat to do with it..Ok today spend some quality time with my mum. Like we talk u know..the mother son bonding thingy..Helped her changed all the curtains cos its been like already a month so time to change to another one! A bit tedious cos i got to climb up and down but hey at least it beats doing nothing! haha. After tat i tidy up my room and rearrange the furniture and all! change the carpet to suit the blinds tat i installed..If u guys know me i can never stick to one thing! heheh there is always changes and improvement. Umm i mean tat refer to objects and not ppl! So dun get the wrong idea k! hehe. Basically today i tidy up the whole house..Wash the toilets and all! Tats wat happen when i have nothing to do.. I will find things to do!

Anyway New Year is just ard the corner!! Yay! I hope and wish tat i can spend it with someone Special!! Never really had the privillege to do tat b4..Its either with frens or cousins! So will b crossing my fingers until then! (",) Hope i can make it come true!

2003-12-29T12:40:00.000+08:00

AMAZING EVENING

Ok lets c wat did i do yesterday..Oh yah i was like working on a few songs like Big Bad Voodoo Daddy - The Maddest Kind Of Love, Rem - Erti Kasih and 311 - Amber. I mean not working on it literally was just trying to sing along to the songs..I must say trying to sing to a diff genre like The Maddest Kind Of love and 311 - Amber which strays away from the ballads are kinda interesting! I am like so so in love with "Maddest Kind Of Love"! The song has a slow rhythm to it and most of all it is sexy!! Hahaha well to me tat is! I felt extremely sexy singing to the song! U guys must be wondering why am i going thru all this troubles! Well its actually for someone special in my life..I wanted to dedicate some songs to tat person. Cos thru the songs tats how i can tell that person the way i really feel....but alas i did'nt get the chance to do tat!hahahha Oh well i just have to wait for the right moment and time for tat to happen.

Anyway after tat met up with my date at Jurong Point cos we wanted to catch Lord Of The Ring - Return Of The King hey tat rhymes haha! Met up ard 8pm cos the show starts at 8:40pm. I am taking a risk man cos the show is 3 and half hrs so it would finish off ard 12 plus and my last bus home was leaving at 12:20. So if i miss tat bus then i guess i'll b walking home huh! hahahha! The things i do for Love! Anyway enough abt tat so we watched the show and i have only one thing to say. Lord Of the Ring - Return Of The King kick arse man!! Been waiting so long for it and wat better way then to catch it with my date! The evening was a blast! I just love the fighting scenes man..Awesome graphics there! Simply amazing and one more thing Liv Tyler is such a hottie!!! Damn..she looks so cute man! she got tat angelic face tat no matter how much u look at it u won't get tired of it!

I must say the seatings in the cinema is a bit cramped just a bit uncomfortable and to top it our seats were in the middle of a family and the asoh bside me took up most of my space its like i could'nt even rest my arm on the hand rest which makes me lean closer more to my date hehe. Oh yes just remmember if u r gonna watch a 3 and a half show i advise u dun drink so much! as matter of fact dun even drink! Cos i had to pee at the near ending of the show! Damn! hahah miss some parts there!So there u go! Tats how i spend my weekend!

2003-12-27T13:27:00.000+08:00

Beaches Day!

I guess my title says it all! hahah yup it was beaches day for me yesterday. Went out with my cousins to Sentosa ard 11am plus and bcos i have always been the wacky one in da group i made them walk all the way to Sentosa! It was a long bridge though and the sun was not very friendly either! It was a hot hot hot morning man! Anyway when we got to Sentosa i got another craaziieee idea! hahah Instead of taking the monorail or bus to Pahlawan beach we walk all the way there! Hahah! Wat can i say...ysterday i hav the mood for walking long distances..Along the way we talked, laugh at each other silly jokes and sing a bit here and there. Now this is wat i call a great day where everyone was just having a blast of their time.

And to make it better we came across a volleyball in one of the bushes! The day could'nt get any better than tat! Hahah A free ball! So alas we reached the beach and all this is done by walking!!I think we walked a few kilometers man! Finally we reached our destination..The beach was so crowded! It was buzzling with tourists! some red devils and some china ppl..Anyway we picked a spot near the bridge and i must say the tide was high! cos it touched the bridge. Cool!

Apply sun block on my bare body. I intend not to get tan cos i already got it from my previous visit. But alas the sun was almighty.. Thank god i did'nt get burned! hehe.So the fun began..We played volleyball for starters and its fun until i sprained my wrist just a bit but tat did'nt stop me from having fun. We played volleyball till my wrists got really red man! hahah I'll do anything to have fun man! Nothing can stop my adrenalin once it started running! after hours of volleyball we headed to the sea! Damn the water was cold!! It felt so nice! I must say we stayed in da sea for a few hours..Played water polo and all and one thing u must know abt me is tat i am not a good swimmer..was always afraid to go further to the deeper side but yesterday i gather my courage and swam with my cousins to the deeper side! Just imagin we swam all the way to the borderline!! Phew! Never felt so happy man! I accomplished something! Not bad huh..All this fun and excitement was thwarted for a moment when it started to rain..Thats where we leave the sea and when it was just dirzzling..we had another game of volleyball!! We left ard 7 plus. Think my day is over..hahaha Guess again..We headed to another beach..I had a bbq with my classmates at East Coast and since my motto is come together leave together..i brought my cousins along..

Another journey began hahah! Reached Bedok station ard 8 and went to grab some snacks and mineral water from the Ntuc there! Have u guys seen the Ntuc there! Its like doubled storey!! aha iwas like wow it got everything! And double storey! heheh wat can i say i never been into Ntuc tat big b4! Anyway we took a free shuttle bus and it stopped at Costa Sands which is far far away from the pit! My frens pit number is 15 and we r at pit 45!!! So we walk long distance again..Our walk was accompained by the rain..It rained a little nevertheless it did'nt stop us from getting there..Reached there and had a great time with my frens man..gonna miss them.. One of my cousin was so tired to go home that she called her dad to fetch us up..We left the pit ard 12 plus..I tot i could just go home cos really i was drained..so drained out..But my uncle had another idea..He brought us to have supper at changi there..And i was really tired tat i spilled my water on my shirt..Hey dun blame me for being clumsy!! haha my eyes were starting to have a mind of their own!!I must say it was a great day out yesterday! Today i hope i can go out with A!! Really am praying tat he would be able to go out with me..Its Saturday man i just wanna spend it with A..But he might go out with his frens..Oh well i guess frens always come first..So if he's out with his frens today..maybe we just meet up tomorrow..Ok guys tats it for today (",)

2003-12-25T23:12:00.000+08:00

Passion tat yearns to come alive

I know i've already written an entry but i just have to include another one.. I just finished watched Billy Elliot and i must say the show really touched me..Blly has a passion for ballet..By right if a guy takes up ballet ppl will say tat he is a sissy..Nevertheless bcos of his strong passion in dancing he make it thru to the best ballet sch..I on other hand has always like singing..It has been my passion eversince i was small...Whenever i sing i feel like i am free of all the troubles..Its like i'm drifted into a different world where there r no worries but only peace...

When i was small it was my dream to be a singer..But then..there is one thing tat i lack..something tat Billy has..tat is confidence and faith and of cos the support from his loved ones..So with tat lacking..i've always held myself back whenever there is a competition..Instead of giving it a shot..I just turn around and walk away.....Wat a wimp huh...

I've always wonder..how does it feel to stand on a stage facing a big crowd..Would i get a chance to be in tat situation?...And i must say singing is wat makes me a colourful person..It shapes the person i am today....

2003-12-25T21:38:00.000+08:00

Lost....
Phew am i shagged! Just got back from my aunt's place..U know i planed 2 spend the day just chilling at home watching all the great programmes but alas my plan was spoiled.Cos today my aunt is having a gathering at her place and its like everyone is there..So if i dun go my cousins will come to my house personally and drag me out! hahah wat can i say i have strong bonds with my relatives! Its like if one is not present the rest will feel a bit lost cos we r so used to doing things together.

Man...i am lucky to have ppl who care 4 me at least when i feel alone and down i can count on them. So off i went..Travelled from Clementi to all the way to Tampinese!!! Man the thing i do for ppl tat i love!! Hahah and to make things worst the train was damn packed! I mean really really packed to the extend u have no space to breathe! Tats wat i get for forgetting abt 2day and came out late!! Next time must keep a memo already man..

U know i've always loved festive season..It add smile to my face seeing everyone all dressed up and excited..Especially during Christmas when ppl xchange gifts..How come our festival dun practice tat! haha...Damn! To be honest how i wish i could celebrate today with someone whom i can call my love..but alas my wish has yet to be fufilled..I guess i just have to wait till tat time come huh..

Back to the topic so i reached Tampines and rushing to my aunt's place but i got one problem!!! I forgot how to get to her place!! Cos she just moved there and the last time i went there was by cab!! Sometimes i can get really stoopid man! I forgot to ask her for direction! So there i was stucked at the interchanged for a brief moment. I called my cousins hp but no one answered! Imagine tat! I was so pissed off man..was on the brink of travelling back home when one of my cousin called me back on my cellphone..So u tot i was saved! hahaha guess again! I got lost on finding the block. Her block is 452 and i was somewhere ard block 498!! Hahahah wat an adventure! So in the end i resorted to the last resort and took the cab! I reached Tampines aat 3:30 and i get to the gathering at 4:15!! I spent almost and hour looking for the venue. Was really really tired man..But was happy and cheerful again when i sees my cousins again..I'm glad i made it! well tats it for now..and Revolvus i forgot to say HI! hehehe (",)

2003-12-24T18:35:00.000+08:00

Too Lost In You

You look into my eyes, I go out of my mind
I cant see anything 'coz this love got me blind
I cant help myself, i cant break the spell

Im in over my head
You got under my skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that im in
And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell to far this time

Baby im too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep i can't sleep, i cant think
I just think about the things you do
Im just too lost in you

Well you whisper to me
And i shiver inside
You undo me and move me in ways undefined
And you're all i see
And you're all i need
Help me baby, help me now

'Coz im slippin away
Like the sand to the tide
Flowing into your arms, falling into your eyes
If you get too near i might disapear
I might loose my mind

Baby im too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep i can't sleep, i cant think
I just think about the things you do
Im just too lost in you

Im going crazy with love for you baby
I cant eat and i cant sleep
im going down like a stone in the sea
No-one can rescue me

Baby im too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep i can't sleep, i cant think
I just think about the things you do
Im just too lost in you

You look into my eyes, i go out of my mind
Im too lost in you, im too lost in you

2003-12-23T15:40:00.000+08:00

A good start! (",)

I must say i never felt happier b4 eversince i got 1st in class..Last nite met up with someone and it turned out very well than expected. Damn.... There is a God afterall! So we met up for a drink at the Kopitiam at Jurong point and at first does'nt talk much but somehow on the later part everything seems to be flowing smoothly. By the way A is in a band i wont say which though so as to protect A's identity.

At first i was rather nervous cos afraid of being stood up i mean i was stood up once so was jus being extra cautious. Thank God A came eventhough was late by a few mins flat. I tried my best to be myself..tried to maintain my coolness but somehow along the way i guess i loose it a bit. Felt like a fool. Anyway i tried to talk as much as i can man..cos i dun wanna both of us to get bored by just staring at each other.. Really wanted A to feel comfortable with me and true enuff we both did. Since we met up late i went off quite early ard 11pm and A was sweet enuff to wait for the bus with me though i felt bad for letting A do so..

So while waiting for the bus i bring up the topic abt strange encounters and A began to talk abt A's experience..It was very entertaining to me as i die for these kind of extra phenomenal encounters! But sadly A's story was cut short cos the bus driver came. The moment i boarded the bus i was wondering will i ever sees A again? Will i get the chance to know A deeper? The feeling is like u r in a middle of ur happy time and suddenly u had to stop and leave..when u r at ur peak! I never felt this stronge b4 towards someone....But then i better not have any hopes huh..just go with the flow i guess..From now on i am going to be very direct..All this time i've been holding back from wat i really wanted to say..Now i am going to change tat. Whenever i have something in mind i am going to be direct abt it cos if u dun say it u'll never get the chance to do so....We live only once so make the best of it...

2003-12-22T11:53:00.000+08:00

Should I.....

I'm just wondering should i go back to chatting in irc and try out any possibilities tat might come.. Like look for potential dates or something?? Ha ha ha do i sound kinda desperate?? Dun blame me man cos i am up to here[point way up to my neck]!! Had enuff having no one special in my life besides my frens and family of cos. Though i know some of my blog frens think its not easy being in a relationship cos u'll never know watcha gonna get.. like wat Forest gump said "Life is like a box of chocolate. U'll never know wat u r gonna get"

Tats true life is so unpredictable there r risks involve. There r always risks ard no matter wat u do but if u dun take the risks u won't know how far ur capabilities are. U won't know wat the outcomes will be...be it good or bad.. Correct me if i'm wrong..Having a relationship is all abt having someone to love and care and also to adapt to each other's behaviour..am i right or am i right?? And most of all should have faith and trusts in each other only will the bond bloom..Nevertheless its easy to put it in words but in reality to actually carry out these facts are not as easy as it sounds..but then again who says it would be easy???

Anyway wat the heck huh.. I guess i just try my luck..
Ps: I can't find my house keys!!! Argh its damn frustrating!!Been without it for 3 days str8!!!

2003-12-21T14:28:00.000+08:00

Its been a while..

After so long finally i met up with my blog frens and i must say it was a pleasant event. Yesterday marks the birthday of Duan aka Ewan. The weather was pretty cold last night as its been raining for quite sometime. Nevertheless the cold night was warmed up with everyone's presence. We were all chilling sharing tots and some singing away. It sure was a joyous moment. And then the biggest moment of all emerged when we all sang a birthday song to Duan and giving him presents. Duan dun worry k i will get u a present once i got a job alright!!

After tat we went to clubbing and i must say its been a while since i last dance! I think got really lost in my own world for a moment there last nite. Was just feeling as if i have no more worries and all. Never felt tat free and happy! Though i was hoping to get to xchnage numbers but i guess i dunno how to reciporcate back when a person looks at me...Am i just plain naive or stoopid huh! Go figure. Anyway it was also the first nite tat i saw Rick got high so at the last moment i spend my time accompanying him outside..Finally got back home ard 4am..And it was still raining! Can u imagine tat huh!

2003-12-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

The Hunt continues.....

Well today the day continues...My job hunt continues..Woke up pretty early (been waking up early quite recently these few days) So i met my fren at Serangoon cos the walk - in - interview is at Braddell CC there which is at Serangoon..Never expected there to be so many ppl..I mean the que was pretty long..So went for the interview and found out tat it is a 2 yr contract with some incentives.. Well like usual i have to wait for them to call me..I know getting a job is hard and the likely of me getting a call from anyone of the company is 50-50 percent..Nevertheless i will try going for interviews until my last breath...Anyway today went for 2 places..The other one was at Kallang cos HangTen is looking for many ppl for their events tat begins the day after christmas..I hope i get a call from HangTen man..Oh well i guess enuff for today..Goodnite folks

2003-12-17T21:59:00.000+08:00

Wet Wesdnesday

Aaaaah another beautiful day.The atmosphere is just right for staying at home and lying on ur trusty comfortable bed! And to some of you a great day for cuddling with ur sweethearts just enjoying the presence of each other's company..Atlas i spoke to soon cos my day was disturbed...Damn..Today i accompanied my mum to make her visa..Man.. we had to live early i mean real early so tat we won't have to worry abt the que. Guess again! When we got there which was ard 9 plus the que was mother fucking long man..Ya i mean really long! I filled in the form and to get a number i qued for almost 3 solid damn hours...My legs were getting kinda bobbly! Well u guess my agony was over??hahaha guess again! when i finally got my number i have to wait a while more to submit my mum's visa and its not as bad as the queing outside. The thing abt visas is..u cannot apply for a visa when ur passport has only 3 months left..It should at least has 6 months or more and for my case my mum has only 3 months left!!!!!!!!!! Urgggh! Tat was it man! I was up on my neck y'all!

So we now had to go to Immigression there to make a new passport! So off we went to Lavender and do all the procedure again..Fill in the form and wait for ur number...All i can say is we spent 5hrs plus today..Tomorrow we still have to collect the passport and then go and make her visa...Man i am tried guess i'm gonna hit the hay early tonite..SO peace y'all

2003-12-15T10:23:00.000+08:00

Which Guilty Gear X character are you?

2003-12-15T09:59:00.000+08:00

A new DAY

Man..I am so in love with this song playing on my blog!! hahahaha! Can't seem to get tired of it no matter how many times i listen to it! Anyway today is the day where my job scouting begins! I am so nervous man!! In a few minutes i will be calling Giordano main branch to see whether there is vacancies. I really hope they have!! Now i am so nervous i dunno wat to wear! Damn..Wish me luck k guys!

2003-12-14T13:12:00.000+08:00

Another Sunday

Got up pretty early today. WAs up at by 9am. My secondary sch classmate called me today and it was like ions since we last saw each other..I kinda miss those days where we always wait for each other at the bus stop outside my house and go to sch together..She was a great fren and still is..So we met up at mcdonalds and fill each other with updates over breakfast.

And we were awed when we see each other! I mean we both said how diff we look!!! hahaha wat do u expect? Its been quite a while since we last saw each other..She is working as an air stewardess with SIA..How glamorous huh! I mean though u won't have time much for ur personal life cos u'll be flying most of ur time but its great to be able to fly to diff places..Sure is a great job.

If given a chance i would love to be a pilot and fly an airplane..IT would be a dream come true....Today the weather is the same as yesterday..cold and cloudy. A great day to just sit back and relax at ur own comfort at yes home sweet home. Guess i won't be doing much today.Just be sitting in my living room watching mtv..Tomorrow on other hand i will call up Giordano main office and inquire whether there are still vacancies for sales assistant cos i am really dying here at home doing nothing man!I just hope there is..Its job scouting for me tomorrow!! I hope i get a job soon..Does'nt matter if its not related to my diploma which is mechatronic engineering. Having a job is better than not having one. At least i can earn some money and it beats doing nothing at home..At least till i find an opening in areospace..Am really dying to work there but now is not the time where they recruit ppl.

Oh well tats it for now..Have a great weekend ppl.

2003-12-13T22:55:00.000+08:00

Y must singlehood b DEPRESSING

Ya ya i know i've been away for so long now but atlas here i am again. All this while been thinking so much abt myself though..And yes its going to be another topic abt u know getting into relationships..I guess u guys are getting sick of if since it has already appeared in Duan's and Zaini's blog but i am going to talk abt it anyway..

U know people always say tat being single is the best! U get to do everything without having to worry u'll be upseting the other party with ur actions..But to me there is a limit to where finally one day u'll feel tat your life is lonely despite the company u have with ur frens..Though how much u try to keep urself happy and cheerful u'll always comes back to square one..Tat is alone..U feel so alone tat it hurts u so much and make u look life in a different perspective..

U'll start to feel so depressed tat it starts to affect the way u think..U'll tend to look down on urself thus making the current situation worst..

Man it hurts to have no one to share ur life with. It hurts to have no one to say "I miss u" or "I love u"..Everyday i wake up asking myself y am i such a failure in love?? Why must i be tortured in this manner?? Is it too much to ask for to be loved by someone??

Y must my life be filled with so much tears...How i wish i could stop feeling like this..Only GOD knows how tormenting and agonising my life is despite tat i try so much to look happy..My life is so damn lonely tat i dun really have anyone i can talk and confide too?? Tats how lonely my soul is..Its not like i have no frens just tat there is non i can really share my problems with..Cos all along the impression my frens have abt me is tat i'm very easygoing,cheerful and such a nice companion to be with..How could i possibly be having problems like these....

I wonder wat is it tat i lack??? If ppl say i have everything then why am i living with misery..............................

2003-12-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

Dying Flame

Guess tats it guys....
Thanks for being there when i'm alone...
Thanks for the concern tat u've showered me...
Thanks for cheering me when i'm down...
Thanks for accepting me as ur fren...
And most of all thanks for making a difference in my life...

Its time for me to get back into my shell and live alone like i used too...I've tried opening my doors accepting watever comes..Tot it would bring more life to my monotonous life but atlas i spoke too soon..I end up being alone as ever....so its back to square one..I'm shutting my door to the world...Last but not least u guys presented me with the best memories ever and as GOD adds years to my life u guys added life to my years..I will never forget each and everyone of u..Though its sad tat i will not be blogging anymore just remember each and everyone of u will stay alive in my heart as long as i live....

2003-12-02T11:22:00.000+08:00

Tragic Monday

Please please remind me not to go for any blindates anymore!! Man yesterday was such a bad experience!!U c my fren has made promise to meet this 1 person and to go out on a movie date. Eventhough i was very reluctant to go i have to give my fren face and so i went..

From the beginning i know its not going to be a very pleasant day...I went down to Bedok to fetch this date of mine and it turn out my date is late! Oh well guess its a normal thing..Waited for almost an hr like a stupid person walking up and down the station..In the meantime one guy from NYP took advantage of doing a survey with me. I guess he can sense i'm bored to death as well!

Anyway when my date arrived i was so so so surprised!! My date is not anything wat my fren had said!!I hate stupid pranks like this!!!Turn out my date was ugly and not only tat but has a bad attitude!!I have never seen anyone so full of themselves!!!!!I hate this kind of ppl!So this date of mine keep bragging how many ppl loves her and bla bla bla all kinds of shit!!The plan was to go to causeway point to catch a stupid show called something like "Mr Cinderella2".U can even tell wat a stupid show it is from the title.. My ears felt like exploding hearing to her gloating and bragging tat i just had to ask one of my fren to call me up so tat i have an excuese to leave her!!

I was saved by my best fren and we met up at Cineleisure..We watched cold creek manor..To those who wants to watch Cold Creek Manor i would reckon dun waste ur 7 bucks cos its a boring classic thriller show!! Read the movie sypnosis tat will give u a brief description to the movie plot..Anyway with the rate i'm going i guess i'm going to be single all my life huh!!I dun believe in love now after wat i've been thru..Sad.. .eventhough i've longed to shower my love and be loved i guess i have to wait ions yrs for tat to happen...Tats wat ppl keep saying..just wait and it will happen one day..The question is wat makes u so sure u will find it?? Maybe till u r 60yrs ol then u will find one huh...

2003-11-30T19:02:00.000+08:00

Tis the season 2 b jolly

Phew wat a week it has been. Been going out non-stop since last Tuesday! And each day i got abt ard 1 plus! Now this is wat we call Hari Raya outing!! It only happens once a year and we ought to make the best of it cos we'll never know if we will be around for it the next yr. U know wat though the atmosphere is not as good as last year i can still celebrate Hari Raya meaningfully..I mean this yr most of the working ppl salary has been cut and its not going to be restored back to normal anytime soon..Tats y everyone's been keeping a tight budget on spending and all.

Anyway back to the topic i think kids are the life of the celebrations here!!Don'nt u think so!! I mean their faces says it all!
The anxiety and not to mention the green packets they will recieve!!Well i got to go now! Need to attend to the guests. Have a pleasant evening everyone! Ps: All of those who knows me..U guys r cordially invited to my house! Anything jus sms me aight.

2003-11-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya!

Selamat Hari Raya semua!!!!!!Semoga bahagia di samping keluarga tercinta!!!!!!

2003-11-21T09:37:00.000+08:00

Eclipse

Do u notice it seems very dark this morning??Well tats bcos there is an eclipse happenning on the moon! Fascinating is'nt it? Well guess again. My mum says its a bad omen. U c she said whenever there is an eclipse on the moon tat means war is on the way..When i heard her saying tat my heart trembled with fear! This is because i can't bear to c innocent ppl to die! Just bring sadness to my eyes! She konws because it happened to her when she was young and the funny thing is it happened during the fasting month as well!! Creepy is'nt it how history repeats itself?! Anyway i pray to God tat hope there won't be any new war breaking up. I just dun wan anymore sufferings..Enuff is enuff..Sometimes i think those al Qaeda troops are really really tarnishing our religion and if there r really a devote Islam they won't have used violence.Cos Islam or any religion never teach their followers to use violence on others..I wonder how they sleep at night knowing tat they had killed so many innocent lives wheras they r only having disputes only on one ppl...Such stupid low disintegrates insetcs they are these rottens society trash..I just hope nothing bad will happen....

2003-11-20T09:10:00.000+08:00

Early Bird

Today's weather is so cold!! I like! Wat a nice day to roll back and froth on the bed but too bad i'm up early cos there are so many things to do! Moreover i am the type of person once i am up it would be hard for me to get myself to sleep again!! Troublesome right!! My mum just told me we have to make 400 "ketupats"!!Looks like there would be many blisters on my fingers this yr!! Oh well i guess its ok huh cos i like making "ketupats" anyways!

Well i better end it off now! Still got to drill some stuff on the wall!! Have a nice day all!

2003-11-19T11:23:00.000+08:00

Back In Action!

Wassup blog maties!!!!!!! Man its been so long since i've blogged!!Had to deal with some technical failures back then! Well now i'm back in action!! Woohoo!!!Ok lets gat back to work!..

Lets see..the last time i left my blog hanging i was seating for my last paper.Though it was a bit tough i managed to go through it smoothly.Just hope i pass man! With the exams out of the way i am a free bird!!!Ya too free tat i am beginning to understand how Duane feels having too much time on his hands!! U c i am the kind of person who just can't just seat and do nothing ...I'll die of boredom and u dun want tat to happen cos i'll get really restless!! Weird but true so now u know something deeper abt me! Hahaha! Anyway had my exams during fasting month! Honestly i just love fasting month! Dun ask me why i just like it! This year after for so long, i've shopped at Queensway Shopping Centre! I must say the shops there are getting better! I mean they have all the clothes and accessories tat i liked! Bsides tat its getting a new look! Not bad i must say! Had a great time shopping there with my older cousin!Bought some cool stuff man! I can't wait to wear them!! Hahahahaha!! Oh ya i bought this nice hat and my was i in love with it!! Its so darn nice i just had to grab it!!Wat can i say i'm a hat collector freak!!Now wats missing is a pair of shades!!I just dun have the time to get it man!I used to have a couple of shades but i lost some of them and some i gave it to my fren cos they liked it so much.

Did i mentioned it rained heavily during my shopping spree?!!! It was raining buckets man! Actually before i headed down to Queensway Shopping Centre i was heading towards IKEA cos i need to get some stuff! Rain did'nt stop me from getting wat i want! So in the end i got drenched to the skin!! Hahahah! Was all wet from head to toe! Well it was fun though playing in the rain!

Anyway few days after tat i got really sick!! Guess i deserved it huh! Had a 3 in 1 combo of sickness!! Had dry cough,fever and the killer disease flu!!! Man i was going thru the fasting month thru agony!!Being the stubborn kid tat i am i still fast!! Sometimes my strong headedness really scares the shit out of me! Anyway i'm Ok now! Alive and kicking! Hahaha

Did i mention i headed down to Geylang twice! All i can say is when i'm there i can really feel the festive mood in the air and its a nice feeling.Apart from it being crowded without fail everything else is fine..Hey wat can i say! There is only 1 Geylang and its like the entire moslem nations come down there to shop no wonder its like we r packed like sardines when we r there! Went there with my mum and cousin and aunties!! I dunno since when i've been labelled the interior designer of the family hahaha! Cos whatever they buy they ask for my advice whether its goes with this and tat if matched with the stuffs in their house!Well i had fun really choosing the right colour and all. Bought a nice curtain for my mum!! Its something not too overpowering yet able to show its sophisticatedness if matched with my strong paint colours which is spicy salsa which are good for houses filled with wood furnitures!!Umm i am talking just like those interior designers! hahahah Awesome!!

Ok ok enuff abt tat...Few days ago i went to iftar with my cousins. We wanted to eat at ZamZam but we had to go somewhere else cos by the time we reached there the place was already full. After tat we wanted to watched the scary korean movie tat everyone was talking abt called "Wishing Stairs" So we headed down to cineleisure n guess wat the tickets was sold out! Man wat a nite! Well being the easygoing and fun person we are we decided to eat at swensens and i think by now u've guessed it too the place was packed! I mean there was a long que! Still on the idea of wanting to have ice creams we all headed to a nice funky cafe at Wheelslock place! Thank God this time we could get a table of 4!I had Sweet Cidal and boy was it yummy!! Oh ya we visited Heereen too cos my cousin wanted to get some stuff. One more thing did i mention it was Busking Nite!! I tot the walkway would be normal but was i wrong! It was so damn pack! Was beginning to think was i at Geylang? Cos the streets was filled with ppl. We actually had to push our way to get to our destinations!Tat was a surprise! One more thing while eating and hanging out with my cousins in the cafe i notice this cute person was staring at me! At first i tot tat person must be looking at someone else. But to think of it there is no one behind me i mean there is no table!! So i just try smiling at the person to see if i'm right and guess wat tat person smiled back!!!! Wah see its not a bad night afterall!! Hahahah too bad it just ended there. How i wish i could get tat persons number! Afterall i'm single and available!!! Hahahaha! Hmm i think i've wrote enuff!! Wow! wat a long summary! Till we meet again maties! For all the moslems and my blogmates Syawal is just ard the corner so i wish u all a advanced Happy Hari Raya!!!!Only a few more days to go! Woohoo!!

2003-11-04T08:28:00.000+08:00

2day's THE Day!

Well here goes!!I am up pretty early today eventhough the paper starts at 2!!!Wat can i say i am eager to get this exam over with! I hope the paper would'nt be that tough! Am crossing my fingers!!I wonder how Rik, Hq & Tjay r doing?!! Watever it is i wish them all the best!! Tats it for now guys! Adios!

2003-11-02T01:53:00.000+08:00

Speechless

I got a wonderful surprise ever!!And wat makes it special is tat it came from my frens whom i seldom get to be with!Cos honestly i tot i would just spend my day just like the normal day..Even my brother and mum did'nt wish me Happy B'day i guess they've forgotten abt it...Anyway thanks guys for the treat!!Though its not a big deal for u guys but it sure is a special occasion for me!U guys dunno how touched and grateful i am man! Once again Arigatogozaimasta minamisan!!(meaning: Thank u very much everyone!!)Love u guys always!

2003-11-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

Spick&Span

I dunno wat got into me today but spent the entire day cleaning the house!I mean really clean the house! Boy am i beat! I wipe everything clean man! Amazing how much energy i have eventhough i'm fasting! Nevertheless it helps to keeps my mind off some things..

So here goes..i found some clothes tat i tot never existed in my wardrobe so tat settles my problem!Woohoo!! At least i have something to wear for the much anticipated celebration!!I know its 2 early to talk abt Hari Raya!! But wat the heck! I can't help it! Muahahahaha! The thing now is i just need to alter some of the clothes to make it more presentable! So tailorshop here i come!!

See its not so bad afteralll! Hmm i'm suppose to study with Tjay and Duan later on..but not sure whether its confirmed yet cos TJay is waiting for Duan's call. I guess i am going to give my best later...I really want to do my best for these 2 papers!!After the exam its working life for me! Wonder where to start looking for jobs..I dunno even knoe wat kind of job i want...

2003-11-01T00:59:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday To mE

Happy Birthday To Me
Happy Birthday To Me
Happy Birthday To Me
Happy Birthday To Me!!................

2003-10-31T20:22:00.000+08:00

Depression strikes Back

Its just a few hours before my birthday and instead of being happy i am depressed...Y this is bcos my brother just told me tat for this Hari Raya he is not going to give me money to buy new clothes cos this time ard his pay has been cut due to the economic recession...Its sad..cos for the first time i am not going to shop for the much awaited celebration unlike i've always had..I am just sad but i understand it must have been harder for him to even break the news to me..Afterall he is the only breadwinner in the family..So i guess the best way to handle this is to be right there for him..I guess this is the time where he needs my understanding and my support.

So here goes..after writing this out i will swallow this depression i'm feeling and try to be cheerful. Tats the best way i guess..I mean i can't show him the sadness i'm feeling its just going to make him real bad....So tats all i have to write 4 today..Adios amigos

2003-10-31T15:48:00.000+08:00

Its Been A While

Its been a while since i last blog tats bcos i've been studying preparing for my exam..my final exam actually...Eventhough i only have 2 papers but i wanna really give my best for it! This would be the last time i'll be mugging. Anyway i had a great time with my cousin Kakak Ina. Went to break fast with her after studying in sch the whole day..U c she just got a job at Raffles there and its been a while since i last saw her so i decided to meet her.. The funny thing is i did'nt really know where her workplace at eventhough when she already showed me the direction.

Eventually i met her at Raffles MRT control station and being a newbie to Raffles place i decided to venture ard the place. We wanted to eat at Long John Silver all bcos thanks to singtel Find and Seek services on my phone. The phone says there is a Long John Silver outlet somewhere near there so we went looking for it. We search for quite sometimes until finally we came across Burger King where we decided to stop looking and settle there!!

Thats not all after tat we thought of looking for a bus stop hoping tat there would be some bus services tat passed by our home so there we go again searchin!!! All the way until we give up and come across Tanjong Pagar MRT station!!! HAHAHAHAAA i mean we walked quite a dsitance!! Bummer! Anyway it was a nice experience cos while walking we talk and joke ard! Despite of feeling tired it was fun..

2003-10-24T23:48:00.000+08:00

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2003-10-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

The end is Here

U guys must be wondering wat do i mean by the title above..Well actually wat i mean is soon i will have no more classes to go to cos after this final exam i am a free bird..I know i am suppose to be happy, ecstatic even but i can't bear to live my frens..One thing i know when we graduate we r all going on a different path its going to be hard to keep in touch with other..After so many years spending time together i have to leave everything behind and embark on a new beginning..Tat is jus so sad..My life is not going to be the same again man..Its already time for me to come out into the real world..No more living in a protected circle...

There is a saying tat goes "Nothing last Forever" well tats wat i am feeling now.goodbye my frens hope u guys do well in watevr u do..I only have memories of u all...Man i am too sad to carry on writing my blog so tats it for now..

2003-10-21T00:46:00.000+08:00

Yay! i did it!

Guess wat i manage to answer most of the questions for today's paper!! I am so happy! To think off this is one of the killer module and i manage to overcome it with ease! Another burden off my chest! 2 down now 2 more to go!! Woohoo!!

Apart from tat my best fren Shahidah called me today..She is feeling very fucked up with her bf whom she knows eversince primary sch..I just think her bf is just plain petty..It hurts me to see her in such a destitute condition..She was sobbing when she called me..U c this is wat happened.. She worked last friday and was feeling giddy..she is the kind who would faint easily and bcos of tat her colleague who lived near her suggested tat they go home together taking the train so tat if anything happens to her she would be there for her..Anyway her fren lives in in simei and Sha lives in Chua chu kang..so while in the train her bf called her cos he is suppose to pick her up from her work place but he did'nt turn up and asked her where she was..

Obediently she told him in the train..And u know wat when he heard tat he raised his voice at her cos he said she purposely take the train so tat she could flirt and cruise and all! I mean wat the heck! I know it would b faster for her to go home by bus but the main thing now is she is feeling sick..I mean he did'nt even know tat she is sick and tat her fren is the one who suggested tat she take the train with her so tat seh can look after her if anything goes wrong... Just imagine how heartbroken my fren was!!

I feel really really mad when she told me tat! He said she is being too sensitive but as matter of fact he is the one who is sensitive..He did'nt even know tat she was feeling sick..And to make things worst he said he give up on her and let her do watever she wants! He wash his hands off her..Man..wat a bastard tat asshole is!he did'nt call her or sms her the next day..So my fren swallow her pride and give him a call and say sorry to him eventhough its not her fault cos she knows her bf is one egoistic stone headed fella. Its like wat he says is always right!!Damn him!Wats more depressing is when Sha apologize to him he says all sorts of things to her..I find it weird man why has'nt he grow up yet afterall these yrs being together with her he should know how she is like.HE is blowing a small matter into big proportions and just would'nt let it rest easily..So i told my fren its time u gain back ur pride..Just dun bother abt him for now..Cosi know he is expecting her to call him again..So i said to her she has always the one giving in even if its not her fault its time for her to be the fire now..Afterall she is not in the wrong..She has to be strong..This kind of lame jerkass needs to be taught a lesson. He is taking her to lightly just bcos she has always been the one who makes the first move..So now i told her to fuck it and dun bother abt him..If he does'nt call back or sms so be it. I told her to give her bf 1 week and if he still never call i ask her to confront him and solve this once and for all..The thing is he always take his frens as his first priorities. Its like if they ask him out and no matter how tired he is he would still meet them but when my fren sha hang out with her frens he gets agitated and ask her to just stay with her frens and dun care abt him..I mean she is a human afterall! Gota life and frens!! IF being in love means running the other person's life then i think its better not to fall in love..Wats the point?? ITs no difference than being a slave..Man.. i just hope she pulls this one thru.. Afterall this is not the first time..I've always been there for her whenever she is down..I hope my advices somehow make her stronger again..Hope she gains back her confidence and stand up for herself..Been 4 yrs now eversince we known each other..I really cannot take it when someone bullies her..It breaks my heart even more to hear her cry...

How i wish there is more i could do..GOD pls give my fren the strength to overcome this obstacle..Dun make her cry anymore cos she definitely deserve better than this...

2003-10-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

Boring DAY

Today spent the entire day at home as matter of fact i spend my weekends at home for the past weeks..My life is getting more and more mundane..Sad is'nt it?? Oh well maybe bcos right now i am just concentrating on my studies and get over this final exam..I have another paper tomorrow after 5pm. Man..i am so nervous abt it.I'll just try my best to answer as many questions as i can....

Its going to be a very busy week for me from now on i guess..Will be burying my head in my books.Once tomrrow's paper is over i have 2 more to go. Till then i just have to make the sacrifices..AS matter of fact i am feeling a bit sick now..head is heavy and all..I hope i can pull through(crossing my fingers)..I guess its back to the books for me now..And to my blogmate its been a while since i get in touch with u all..I hope u guys have not forgotten abt me though! lol. There is one thing i wanna ask u all though..If i send u sms-es like the usual things frens normally do..will u guys bother to reply back? Better still do u guys consider me one of ur frens? I mean normally frens would exchanges sms-es talk on the phone and all..I just dun c it happenning to me man..Its like i only get to talk with u whenever u guys r online or i'm online..After tat then its silent again..

Maybe i guess u guys only treat me like a net fren the one tat u only c online..Am i thinking too much?? I dunno.. am just being honest with myself.... Its sad though..though u have frens non really treat u like one..I am saying in general so pls dun get offended..Even bestfrens betrays u so wats more is there to life?? Are our siblings the only frens we have?? Cos at least they r there when u r down or happy....yet again not all family are like tat...

2003-10-18T14:19:00.000+08:00

Mugging Mode

It has begun!! The time is finally here where i will be in my mugging mode! Yeah its time to get ready for battle man! hahaha!Had my first paper today and it turned out pretty well! I stayed in sch the whole day just to prepare for it and if tats not enuff ikeep on studying even when i got back from sch ard 10 all the way till 2am in the morning! Gosh i didn't know i was tat hardworking!!hahaha Scary!

Anyway had a nice friday..Skipped my morning lecture to go to the mosque with my adorable 9 yr ol nephew..IT was raining buckets but tat did'nt stop us from going to the mosque..I mean it was fun though walking thru the heavy rain and we did'nt even get wet!!Its funny how a small kid can jus make all ur troubles dissapear when u r with them! That cute innocent face and happy go lucky attitude just brightens my day! Kids are the most adorable things on earth! Well at least when they are nice though! hahaha Oh well i guess tats it for now..I am going to take a short nap..Dunno wat i'll do today! Still got no plans..Bummer! Well have a great weekend!

2003-10-16T13:38:00.000+08:00

Irritated
U know wat i hate it when people stood me up especially when they already promised tat they would come..I am in school by the way..Supposed to meet up with my fren at the usual hang out to finish up on my last assignment..Been here since 9am..and look at the time now its close to 1:40...Some people are just plain assholes! Wats worst is they did'nt even bother to reply to your sms-es or let alone inform u tat they cannot make it! Is tat too much to ask for?? Some people are just beyond explainations..

Oh well enuff abt tat..This sat i have my first paper..man it sure is fast but thank god it only require memory work so its not tat bad..Nowadays i notice tat most of my blog mates are cramming for their exams..Especially HQ and Rik..Rik has his pratical paper today..So all the best buddy!!tats it for now..

2003-10-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

A Fun Day

Finally i am able to take in a deep breath and exhale with ease..The 2 presentations tat i've been working on are finally over!! Hurray! Now one more assignment to go! I hope mi can finish it by this week! Surprisingly my 2nd presentation went extremely well!! I enjoyed the questions and answering time!! Never would i imagine my classmates would be so attentive during my presentations! Man i'm so touched!! I can say the questioning and answering session is the longest ever compared to the previous presentations done by my other classmates!! I never felt better! For once i felt like some big shot there in the lecture theather!!!By the way my presentation was abt, "How & What A Teenager Look 4 In A Relationship" Cool topic huh!!

I dunno y but today i feel extremely confident! Since it was a wet morning i put on a black turtle neck and u know wat??? I felt so classy!! hahaha I feel damn good! Its like when i walk down the lecture hall it feels like i am on the runway!! muahahaha!! All eyes are on me! Damn!! hahah feels great to be appreciated and noticed! I'm not saying i am good looking watsoever maybe its the vibes tat i showed tats y i get all tat attention! lol

Anyway after sch i hang out with my other frens at block 51 which now is called Club51 hahah. Had great time playing cards with them! and the whole stretch of the block was filled with our loud music as one of my fren brought along his speakers! Feels really like a club house man! I found out one thing..I am actually a pretty fast learner cos at first i have no clue how to play "tai tee"(i know i spelled it wrong but u guys get e pic.) After being taught and played a game or 2 i am actually having a good time!! I finish first most of the time!! Woohoo! Feels like a champ!

Well i stayed in sch till 8 and got home just in time for my fav mandarin drama.Tonight's episode is a bit touching as Kim got the wrong idea tat her husband is fooling with his old flame wheras he is actually being forced to take care of his old flame cos she counteracted a very rare disease and she actually have no one else to turn to. Apart from tat Kim's sister family condition is getting better. Finally Kim's sister learnt her lesson and decided to stop pressurerise her 2 sons to be the top student and stop drawing up timetable for her sons..She came to her senses when she was called down to the sch as her older son brokedown during his exam and submit a paper with scribbles. So thinking he had let down his mother he ran away from sch leaving his parents making him worried..Wat was so touching was when his younger brother who always look down on him for coming 2nd and not 1st like him went searching for him and the younger brother finally come to term with his older brother and even promised to come in 2nd just like his older brother..I mean tat is soo sweet.! Anyway tats all for now! Till the next time!

2003-10-13T09:08:00.000+08:00

Dream Or A Nightmare??

Surprisingly i wake up early today..I mean real early way beyond my usual timing. There are 2things tat causes tat, first it was a dream tat i had..I was'nt really sure whether it was a dream or a nightmare secondly my cousin called me she forgot to bring her keys so she could'nt come in..Oh ya and one more thing my brother sms me and since i am a light sleeper a slight sound will wake me up!! Damn...

Regarding the dream...it was weird!!!Wats even weirder Duan and Danny was in it!!I am not going to tell wat i dreamt abt cos i am still in shock!! Never would i imagine i would dream anything... anything like tat!!!Man wat a way to start my week!! HAHAHA.

Well enough abt tat..i am going to sch later ard 11 to do and finish up on my 2 mini assignments! once tat down i only have 1 more to go..and after tat is cleared i have to start studying for my first paper which is on this saturday...Bummer..Oh well at least this week is not as stress as the previous week.. I can say i am pretty relax this week. Ok folks guess i'm off now. Till the next time! Cya

2003-10-12T18:34:00.000+08:00

Bla Bla Bla...

Hey its Sunday again....Today's weather is the same like yesterday..Its cold and gloomy just like the way i like..Dun u guys just love it..One thing's missing though and its someone tat i can call my lover...Days like this is the right time to cuddle ur lover and just lay in each others arm and think abt nothing but enjoying each other's company.. Should i b sad bcos i am alone?? I dunno..seems like i am growing numb to all this shit...People always say u r still young and yada yada yada i am just sick of it..Oh well tats life for me huh.Its not like the end of the world..Guess a loner will always be a loner..Looking on the bright side at least i dun have to worry abt how my lover's feelings and all...

If u ask me i dun belive love exist at least not to me..not in my world..not in my life.. Frens..they come and go..They always say ya they are ur frens and when u r in trouble they would be there for u but in real life i rarely sees tat happening..Its like the word fren is only a label..and some sort of a possesion..The more the merrier..If they only respond to u only when u sms them then why bother to even send them sms right?They dun bother to take the initiaitve to even sms u so y bother..They only find u when they need something from u. IF tats the case i rather have non..........Anyway i'm a goner...

2003-10-09T09:59:00.000+08:00

Just Another Day

Gosh its already thursday!! Man time don't really wait for no one huh..Oh well one good thing for today is i dun have to go to sch!!! yay!! Cos my project is already working and i've already submitted the report. I am so happy today!! The weather looks kinda gloomy today..I wonder if its gonna rain later...Oh ya i just remember i'm suppose to have a hair cut date with HQ and Duan but was really bz back then..Sorry to make u guys wait for so long man..If everything goes well i will inform u guys when i am ready k! So HQ are u prepared yet?!! hahaha No pressure ok! Just do watever u can..Just dun cut my hair too short!!

Last night slept quite early and i happened to chat with a person on the net. Lets say "A". It was the usual night i was bored and so i went into the chatroom to be ard with my blogmates then i come across this nick "Azazil". I just found it uniqe and so it began..Sonn enuff i was having a nice conversation with "A". "A" seems like a very easy going person and i really like tat. I guess bcos we have many things in common tats y we are able to have such an easy time making a conversation. Though the chat was for an hour i was happy. I mean it beats doing nothing at home. Once ion a while its nice to have someone to chat with.Glad i went to the chatroom last night..

2003-10-08T16:15:00.000+08:00

Update

Hi again my dear blog! I've not been updating u lately and sorry abt tat. Was kinda bz with scholl. Let c.. last weekend was boring...On sat went to sch and stayed there till 5 and spend the whole night watching tv..Sunday i cleaned the house a little, did the laudary and sweep the floor. After watched Glitter on HBO. The main actress was mariah carey and basically its a show based on her..The ending was rather traumatic tat i almost shed into tears..And when she sang Never Too Far i really really get emotional..Tats a nice song man! Hahaha Guess the weekend makes me got intouch with my softer side huh! hahaha. Monday was normal.. long day at sch. Watched Friends and if i am not wrong is'nt tat a repeated telecast? Anyway on Tues was rather relax went home at 3. I suppose this few days has been relaxing for me..I mean i these past few days i have been going home early cos normally i would have to stayed all the way back to 9 and sometimes 10..I'm glad things are working out for me.. And now i just need to prepare for the 2 presentations which i am due next week and after tat its mugging time!! GOsh how fast time flies by...

Been so busy tat i rare;y have time for myself..Tat was scary man..Never have i felt my life so monotonous b4..I just hope i dun have to go back to tat stage again! Anyway though i could'nt update on my blog i never fail to read up pn my blog mates blogs..and i'm glad everything are ok with them.. Glad Hq had a fulfilling shopping spree..and i hope Tj recovers soon.. and Rik All the ebst man! u can do it k! keep on practising on ur maths! All the best aight!

2003-10-04T01:43:00.000+08:00

Can't Sleep

Today i tried finishing up on my cs1 assignment and finally got it done..I am suppose to be happy but then when i reflect back i still have my msd assignment and pqs presentation..This assignments seems to occupy most of time making my life melodramatically monotonous..I wan my happy life back!! darn it...

Oh well i guess i have to do things fast in order to restore my ol life back. Tonight is rather boring.I was hopping to see my blogmates online but to my dismay non were..I suppose this will be one of the times where i am all by myself..

Anyway spend the whole day at home doing assignments after assignments. Finally i give up and decided to take a break so i open my movie player on my trustee comp and watch Sinbad the legend of the seven seas animation!! Hahaha i know u might think its childish but wat can i say i am young at heart!! lol there is a kid in everyone of us! The show was nice, love the graphics and rich colours..

Umm i can't think anymore of wat to say..Tats it then..

2003-10-03T16:22:00.000+08:00

Aching All Over

WAt a day..I intended to go for my morning lectures today but the moment i try to get up my body is all stiff! Its aching all over! This must be due to the last minute Nafa tests! Now watever i wanna do i must do it slowly even sitting down is like a chore..So here i am stuck at home all alone..Kinda bored actually..nevertheless managed to change my blog template!! woohoo! And i must say not bad for a first timer! hahahaha

But i still have problems like i dunno how to change the text size when using Marque..Well i'll try to find out from Duan!! Sorry to trouble u Duan!! seems like u r a professional when it comes to editing and changing of blogs templates and settings!
At least u are in my eyes!

I wonder wat should i do for the rest of the day....

2003-10-02T22:01:00.000+08:00

It Works!!

Man i am so happy today!!! After months and months of working on my project finally it works!! My hardships pays off!!I am so ecstatic now!!! Hope i used the right word to use!!lol!
And my lecturer has been putting on a big smile eversince last week!! Tats a good news!!I suppose my troubled member dun have to worry if she fails anymore!!We did it!!

Apart from tat i had to go for physical fitness tests today..honestly i did'nt want to go but since one of my group member ask me to accompany him , i could'nt just turn him down..So there i was at the school's sports complex still having 2nd thoughts though..Finally its decided when i pass my student card to the instructor incharge. But unfortunately me and my fren got separated!!! wat a bummer!! if i know its gonna be like tat i would have not go! anyway its too late to back out so there i was all alone!! Just imagine how boring it is doing all the 6 stations by urself!!

Surprisingly one cute chinese guy came up to me and talk to me..It was weird at first cos i was shocked.. i mean i never expected to be approached.. He seems so frenly and after tat more guys come up to chat up with me!! hahahaha wat a day huh!!
One funny thing happened though! u see we are put in a group of 12 and we are mixed with girls..i think u guys should know wat happened next cos it seems the only thing tat keeps recurring in my life..a bunch of chinese girls thought i was a girl! they spoke in mandarin and thank god i understand mandarin!! Those chinese serials tat i've watched eversince i was young really pays off!! lol! i was'nt offended cos it has seen the normal thing happening to me!! lol man was smiling when they say tat.

Anyway back to the cute guy tat approached me..his name is Ben. Surprisingly he always look out for me man..I mean he always stay by my side and another funny thing is when we did our 2.4km run he actually wait up for me and actually i got no mood to run so i was just trying to get over it as fast as i can..I was going on a rarther slow pace and i ask him what are u waiting for?And wat he said really melts me..he said he was waiting for me!! hahahaha man he really melts my heart then..but then i told him its ok u dun have to wait for me i feel bad holding him back..So there he went leaving me behind.After its over he was waiting for me by the stadium..

Sadly i bid him goodbye and told him its was nice knowing him and went to look for my fren..
I tot we were'nt gonna c each other again but i saw him again in the showers! He was getting dressed and i was just abt to leave. He managed to ask me whether i am going home and i said yes and smile and bid him the final goodbye.. I am gonna miss him man..Never in my life i find a nice person like him..sad but true..If only i can have someone caring as him but then again better dun give myself false hope..cos i know it won't happen..

2003-10-02T01:12:00.000+08:00

Another
Day.....

Another long day for me...Spent most of the time at my project room trying to make the modifications on my machine..Add in new wires and a selector switch box..Everythng seems to go well until one of my group member breaks down and cried..The lecturer told her if she never really contributes in the final project she might have to repeat it next semester..

It really saddens me to see someone cry..so i did the normal thing anyone would do..Though its awkward i kept consoling her..I even sent an e-mail to the lecturer to ask for one last chance for her..Afterall she has come a long way and as a leader i guess its partly my fault why she never really performs..We started as a team and i like us to end off as a team..

Apart from tat i am having trouble drawind up the plc ladder diagram man..my brains feels like exploding thinking for a suitable diagram..Tried looking one of the lecturer who taught me Industrial Automation but i guess lady luck was'nt on my side cos she was not ard..Tomorrow i have to present to my lecturer the project..I already tried my best..I hope i'll make it thru tomorrow.. 1 down 3 more to go...

2003-10-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

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2003-09-30T19:59:00.000+08:00

Am back from school..Had another long day again..And did some modifications to my blog!! Man i am just in love with it!! But i would love to add in flash animations or something..Wonder how i can do tat!!

2003-09-30T01:10:00.000+08:00

Its already 1 in the moring and i am still awake!!!I am suppose to be sleeping man!!! Got morning lectures tomorrow!! Anyway i just can't hep it but to setup my blog page..Though its simple and nice i am not really satisfied!!

There Are more rooms for improvement!